14 May 2014

Broke Up ....


Okay. I need to emphasize that this is an emotional post. Please don't read this if you're in happy mood because I don't want to ruin your mood. (T____T)  In short, yup, I broke up with my boyfie(ex). I know right~ You guys might think why even an emo post I still need to edit the blog post banner nicely and upload it here. Well, please forgive me. I just try to do something more so I can forget about him easier.....

We started together on Dec 2012. I'm not sure whether it's consider short or long period for me. But I feel luckily we didn't together for few years or else it's really hard for me to forget about this relationship. I'm a super good memory person. Sometime some friends think it's a good thing because I can memorize a lot of things. For example, my coursemate used to said "Hey, borrow your brain to me lah~ Later exam I don't know how to answer." But what they didn't realize is....sometime it's really difficult for me to erase those unhappy memories....

Most of my friends knew I don't like to frequently post my relationship stuff online. I think it's because it's quite awkward if I broke up with my ex and I need to erase all the photos like some girls always do(if I post a lot) Therefore, doesn't have many friends knew exactly how is my relationship with my ex except my brothers and close friends.

When I told some of them I broke up with him, people are like "Huh? WHY!? I thought he treat you so well."  Well,  this is one of the reason why I have to blog about this post.  Sometime when people asking me how he treat me, I always said he's so nice to me. Don't get me wrong, it doesn't means he didn't nice to me. Just...another factor is more essential to me.


" Blogging or Me ?? "
Yup, he asked me this stupid question again and again. He told me if I choose to be blogger then just broke up with him. =.=''' DUH!?  I knew it's a super lame excuse for broke up but I have no idea why he doing that way. He said he doesn't like me to attend many events and meet many blogger friends because normally blogger went famous and they will only choose rich guy but not true love. ><  Well, am I famous then? I'm just small potato I don't know why he think too much! He also mentioned I don't have time for him because I always blogging. =.=  I'm actually use 2 days in a week to blog, most of my other time is all for him. Remember my previous blog post, I mentioned blogging is my passion? Yup, that blog post is actually been written after he keep on asking me to quite blogging. Blogging is that bad? Or you just trying find any excuse to broke up with me!? But of course, after few times finally he gave up.

" Betray . Bitch "
I guess some of you might shock when saw the word "betray". Yup, that's the main reason why I decided to broke up with him. I CAN'T ACCEPT UNFAITHFUL BOYFRIEND IN MY LIFE. I hate being betrayed! C'mon, who like it? No matter you're a guy or girl, if you ever been betrayed by someone you love the most, then you know how exactly I feel now. He actually betrayed me once, but I'm stupid enough to accept his apologies. I knew, I'm an idiot. People used to say when a guy cheat once, for sure he will come back for twice. I'm so naive and thought he will changed for me, but he hasn't. After he betrayed me with his bitch ex, another bitch frequently find him again. This girl frequently call my ex even while we're still together and the worst, this girl have a bf at that moment. I heard my ex said after that her ex choose to betrayed her then they broke up. I just want to ask that slut now, hey, are you a girl? I don't think so. Because you are doing the exactly same thing that your third party done. In case you curious about how's she look, if you can recognize my ex and you meet him in future, try to spot whether there's a quite fat, small eye, shoulder length hair bitch right beside him. If you do, that's the bitch. I'm actually kind enough didn't explode her real name here. I do believe in  karma, "What goes around, comes around"

I don't understand. Is it every guy like bitch / slut instead of normal girl? Do you think this kind of girl is "clean" enough if you know what I means. She can just easily go with you even she has a bf. I never force my bf to fall in love with me. If you really like that bitch, you can just go with her. I'm outta here. I choose to leave. I choose to leave doesn't means I don't love you. I just choose to protect myself and I love myself. For me, I think no one gonna love you if you doesn't love yourself. It's painful to lose you but it's a good thing for me, at least I won't cheated and hurt by you again.  Although you keep on begging me giving you the last chance, I'm sorry, I won't give you the chance to hurt me again.

I feel so proud because I'm an independent lady. Once I started to work, I didn't take any pocket money from my parents. I pay the rental, utilities, Internet, eat, toll fees all by myself. Even when I'm attending event, I always drive my own. I doesn't need a bf as my driver to fetch me here and there like I don't know how to drive. I feel so comfort because when I'm down or heart broken, there's always some brother to cheer me up. Some of my brothers used to liked me but when I told him I broke up with him, all they trying to do is make me laugh so hard and calm me down. Unlike some other guys who trying to chase, all they trying to said is like "yeah! finally I have the chance to chase you."  Other than brother, of course I also feel thankful whenever I'm emo, my ji mui will comfort me too. They always talking crap and purposely talk something unrelated so they thought they distract me successfully. =.= LOL

For me, single is always not a bad thing. It's actually giving you chance to explode this word. This world is full of love, but doesn't it's only for lover, but for my family, friends and my future one. Just some advise, never find a bf because you're lonely. Find a bf that you really love him. Never quickly say YES when a guy chase you. Think hard whether it's worth for you to accept and your love to him is very essential. 

Thanks for spending time to read my emotional post. I also feel so glad to have you guys to be my readers because you guys are like part of me. I knew some loyal readers read my every single post and leave a comment / message to me sometime. No worries, I'm a strong girl. I will try to forget about that jerk, just time matter. =)  Instead of giving chance to someone who doesn't appreciate you, you should keep it and pass it to the someone that love you so much. Love ya


32 comments

  1. stay strong girl! <3 you'll find a better one :)

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  2. Cheer up and stay strong, dear! <3

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  3. Aiyo so keliean~~ No eyes see your ex lah~~ Cheer up Shini! :D

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  4. Aww...Although it hurts but remember that you deserve a better person for you!
    Im not sure whether Im in the right position to say it but...if a man doesnt appreciate you and your work, he better be leaving because we girls do not need a man to tell us what to do! Cheer up babe ;)

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    1. Yes, this is what I think too. When he love me, he should accept me. Thanks babe <3

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  5. Seriously this guy is such a bastard... yes believe in Karma. You'll find your Mr Right, Shini!! Cheer up ya! ;)

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  6. at first i was like NOOOOoooOOo
    then i saw the reason why you guys broke up! and it was like, way to go girl! you did the right decision~ i was kinda shock he betray you when you guys didnt even reach one year together yet,
    and he has no respect on your passion, you deserve someone better! you're such a sweetie, i'm sure you find someone wayyy better (: cheer up girl!

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    1. Yup, it would be worst if our relationship go further. Thanks dear <3

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  7. awww cheer up babe! pats pats. i had a bad day work today too.. sobsob

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  8. Hi Shini, I might rarely comment but just so you know that I always read your posts :) It is good that you can handle the break up maturely. Proud to learn that you know what is best for you. A cheater definitely doesn't deserve repeated apology. So, chin up and show him that you're better off without him! If he really loves you, there won't be any stupid question from him like "choose me or blogging". The moment he said that, it clearly showed that he didn't trust you. He has doubted you from the beginning so he is totally not worth it. God will spare you a better person in the future, He is teaching you a lesson now on how to know whether the guy deserve your time or not :) I totally understand you coz I was cheated in my previous relationship as well, and I'm happy it ended years ago.

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    1. Hi Mieza, I knew you always read my posts sweetie! Thanks for always support my blog <3 Yup, chin up and show him I can live better without you. I'm so glad you're happy now. Thanks for sharing your story to me. =)

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  9. Screw his last chance, you're better off alone than being with him. Sorry but ugh what a jerk. My ex did the same thing to me, he asked me to choose between him but in my case, my close guy friend. I immediately chose my friend 'cause I knew right then and there, he's (my ex) not worth it, at all and I was right. Hang it there babe. Keep doing what you love and never let anyone tell you to stop doing it or do something that you hate <3 *big warm teddy bear mutual hugs*

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    1. Thanks you so much sweetie <3 Thanks for your sharing your story and your big warm teddy bear hugs ^^

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  10. You will be just fine! I have faith in you! You are one happy-go-lucky girl when I first met you. I believe you deserve a better person! :)

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    1. Awww <3 Thank you dear although we just met once. ^^

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  11. Cheer up and gao yao la babe =)

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  12. I ve been gone through your situation 2 years ago my dear..he is even worst..he betrayed me 4-5 times or many uncountable for those who is still kept secretly.One of the reason he can be so wild is maybe we're in a long distance relationship.I held this relationship for 2 years and I finally cannot take it anymore and choose to gave up..he beg me like hard...after the break up...he kept chasing me back for 2 years till now...he literally didnt know that i had changed BECAUSE OF HIM..i am no longer soft hearted..i am independent.I dont appreciate ppl who take me as granted so i agreed with you.! single doesnt mean you're loser ..the god has yet to finish writting ur love story yet ^^ I hope to meet you in future events so i can give you a big hug as we GIRLS ROCK YO....!!!

    For now *hugs* virtually 1st ~hehe Have a nice day!!
    vsajean.blogspot.com

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    1. Oh dear, luckily you get rid of him already. =) Hope can meet you in future events too. *hugs*

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  13. Cheers up bao bei.. you deserve a better man..

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  14. Guess this is my first time comment in your space babe.
    Cheer up and always think positive, you deserved a better person.
    Meanwhile when you're single, Welcome to Single Club lol. Hahhaa

    Anyway, something I couldn't agree is try not to insult people no matter is bitch/slut or maybe no.
    Is a bad attitude and just makes you low down your profile. :)

    Always be happy my dear. :)

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    1. Yup, first time. =D I guess I'm too emotional while I'm blogging this. Thanks anyway. =)

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  15. UGH CHEATERS are the worst kind of heart breaks </3

    Sorry to hear about your ugly episode, but hey I had a good laugh when you described about the b*tch! HAHAHAHA

    Anyways, hope to bump into you someday! Keep up the good blogging stuff and never leave your career for a man (or a boy, in your case). A man should always be supportive of your career choices! :)

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    1. Yup, I really can't accept that </3 Haha~ Thanks sweetie, hope we can meet someday. ;)

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  16. Be strong! Friends and family will definitely be your pillar no matter what shit happens. Keep blogging :) Don't stop your passion because of a guy. You walk your own path, not him..

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    1. Thanks sweetie <3 That's why I choose my path instead of choosing him. =)

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